Being IMPATIENT

Hi,

I want to apologized about my previous post because I have nag about an issue that I realize I should not be. I am the kind of person who rarely got angry or nag because I want to keep my peace within my heart and mind especially now that I am still on the healing process of my break up. As much as possible I want to have peace within myself and let myself heal 100%. I don't want to talk more about it, so let me point out about what this post is about.

I have started working online after I graduated from College, it was year 2009. At that year, working online is not yet a norm, I mean not everybody knows about it, that they can work in the internet. But my schoolmate named Xandra (she is now in Australia working, I am happy for her) she told me to try to apply at her work and see if I will like it. So I applied and luckily I got hired by her boss named Jeff. After that I was able to worked for about a months and then I resigned because I will be taking up my Teacher's Licensure Examination on September 2009 and I need to go through a months before that for a review. Thank God I passed the licensure exam but I proceeded still at home to apply working online and I got hired to worked from home at the same time I applied for a public and private schools for me to start teaching also. I got hired for a few months contract in a public school and at night I am working online. So for that span of 6 years I am teaching but not full time and still my online work is ongoing since I am doing it flex meaning I own my time, it is up to me of what time will I work. Because of that I realized I like the job I am doing instead of me teaching. I discontinued my teaching career and focus on my online work. Some of my friends has a negative comments about it because working online is not a stable job and teaching is. I didn't listen to them because I love what I do and of course financially I can provide for my families needs even though I am not teaching.

Here goes year 2016, at the start of the year it was all good but at the middle of the year, problem arises. I have two full time boss, one from Canada and one from Los Angeles and they are both very kind to me and treat me as a family already instead of an employee. I am always thankful to God for them. But my boss from Los Angeles became very ill and he cannot anymore continue his business because of his situation and just decided to have a day job, so all of his employee has been passed to other employers, it was really sad actually, the employers that he passed us on does not succeeded so it turned out that my work is for my boss now only from Canada. It was all good but my boss from Canada unexpectedly got a problem on his business until now :( it was very down and my salary will be cut down by next year. Tasks has been very low everyday now and I have anymore nothing to do but to market the events but the task only took me 2-3 hours to finished. So being IMPATIENT attitude strikes me always now. I am used to work very hard and the relaxed time I am having now which I am always sleep and just watch movies online bores me a lot. I wanted to do more and earn more but it seems that work now is very less :( I tried many times already to apply to different jobs online but it was not a success, just last week my former boss from Los Angeles referred me to a new employer and we did an interview last Friday but until now there was no tasks yet given to me. It's just that I want to work hard again, I mean hard, lots of tasks to do each day.

I don't really know what is this scenario I am going through, if what really God is trying to let me understand about my situation now. I cannot  grasps what it is, I believed that there is always a reason for every situation we are in, but kinda I don't understand it. It just makes me sad actually but I am still keeping my faith and trust to God that in His time I will fully understand His will for me.
This verse from the bible is what I am keeping my strength now to fully trust the Lord in my life.

Proverbs 16:9 "We can make our plans, but the Lord determines our steps."

Thank You and talk to you all soon.

P.S I think I will be updating this blog everyday since my life is not busy recently :)

Cheers,